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It gets better, I promise!

What is it like to cut out your favorite food for a month? Very hard!! If any one says it’s easy then they have willpower of steel. To anyone going on a diet, trying to get healthy, watching how much they consume, etc… it does get better! I know how hard it is to look in the mirror everyday and HATE the person you see, the person you let yourself become. Many women blame it on their kids, others have no excuse. Men blame it on their wives cooking, others are just lazy or lost their metabolism. Well the FIRST step is to STOP PLAYING THE BLAME GAME!! The reason you gained weight is because of YOU!! I learned this just recently. Many of you may already be aware and know it’s your fault. But those in denial, please wake up and smell the coffee. There is a whole other world waiting for you!! Whether if you have 200 or 30 pounds to lose… you can do this!!!

I am telling you from all of my almost 10 years of struggling with weight… I went from skinny to fat in 5 years! But the 5 years before that when I WAS in shape… I thought I was FAT? So dumb. But that was the scary realization then, was I on the verge of anorexia? No, because I ate like a pig and loved it. I gained my weight when I got an office job, and turned from an active individual to a sedentary one. Yes, exercise IS an important part of staying fit. Well, if I could go back 5 years ago, I would tell myself to get up and go for a walk during my lunch break! Or go to the gym or park after work…. nope. I was a full-time student then too, so eating right and exercising was the LAST thing on my mind.

Well, now I am older.. ahem… almost 30… and I realize that if I want to have a successful pregnancy where if I am healthy the baby will be too! Overweight pregnancy is very dangerous, not just for the baby, but for you! Like diabetes, heart attack, baby is too big… they are possibilities, but are proven facts. So, now that I’m out of the 200’s… and almost out of the 190’s by 2 lbs 😀 YEP! I feel like a new person….

I was so down on myself before. Calling myself a loser, a fat ass that has to accept being this way now, an ugly bitch. Yes, I am mean to myself. But it’s tough love 🙂 I’m ok, and I am more inspirational and motivated to help others!!! I want to help people though this process. Even though I am not to my goal yet, I know I will be by my deadline! So, feel free to send me a message or comment. I love to hear feedback, and advice. As I love to give it as well.

My husband and co-workers are noticing my weight-loss and that makes me soooooo flippin’ happy!!! I feel proud of myself and like I am accomplishing a great task! Losing weight is not as easy as gaining, but it really can be when you do develop that willpower to keep on going. I am writing this to encourage anyone in my position. I now there are MANY out there, and my blog may only reach a few, but it’s a few more than none 🙂

Take the time out to appreciate yourself today.

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Just pondering…

Good morning my pretties! I have been feeling down lately, not as much energy. I don’t know if I am feeling the lack of sugar or what? I am staying hydrated and eating well. Today I am going to the park after work and taking a light stroll to clear my thoughts and burn off some stress.

Well my sis-in-laws baby shower is coming up on the 21st, so I have a NEW goal! I keep talking about that dress I want to fit into, so I am hoping to zip it up easier by then. This is going to take a lot of discipline, even MORE than I have been doing, on my part. I have the food, I have the energy, I just need the will power.

I need someone to challenge me! I want to start a contest of some sort. Maybe like how many miles under x amount of time? It’s good to make motivational tools, mine is my weight chart hanging in my bathroom…. which is getting full by the way 🙂 So, that really helps me to stay focused on my task at hand.

I’m not losing weight JUST to fit into old clothes, I am doing this for my wellbeing, and to feel good about myself. I want to go out on the town with my husband again, put clothes on without cussing myself out for being fat. I want to love myself again. It’s so hard to do that when I hate myself for getting fat! Even though I have lost 24lbs total so far, I still have a long way to go.

I’m just sitting here pondering the future and what will happen to me…. will I stay focused or will I crack and cheat and give into temptations??? I want to say NO!!!!!!! I need a 2nd me, so I can slap myself if I try to do anything stupid to mess this up… lol. I have given 3 weeks of my all so far, and I have 5 weeks to go until phase 2. I can start adding a little diary and more seasonings 🙂 Like soy sauce…. I need to go buy more groceries so I can start cooking. Y’all I have been getting sooooo lazy about that. I just wish I had more encouragement.

I thought that starting a blog would help but no one ever comments, so I wonder if this is even worth it? Ok, bye.

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