Good morning my pretties! I have been feeling down lately, not as much energy. I don’t know if I am feeling the lack of sugar or what? I am staying hydrated and eating well. Today I am going to the park after work and taking a light stroll to clear my thoughts and burn off some stress.
Well my sis-in-laws baby shower is coming up on the 21st, so I have a NEW goal! I keep talking about that dress I want to fit into, so I am hoping to zip it up easier by then. This is going to take a lot of discipline, even MORE than I have been doing, on my part. I have the food, I have the energy, I just need the will power.
I need someone to challenge me! I want to start a contest of some sort. Maybe like how many miles under x amount of time? It’s good to make motivational tools, mine is my weight chart hanging in my bathroom…. which is getting full by the way 🙂 So, that really helps me to stay focused on my task at hand.
I’m not losing weight JUST to fit into old clothes, I am doing this for my wellbeing, and to feel good about myself. I want to go out on the town with my husband again, put clothes on without cussing myself out for being fat. I want to love myself again. It’s so hard to do that when I hate myself for getting fat! Even though I have lost 24lbs total so far, I still have a long way to go.
I’m just sitting here pondering the future and what will happen to me…. will I stay focused or will I crack and cheat and give into temptations??? I want to say NO!!!!!!! I need a 2nd me, so I can slap myself if I try to do anything stupid to mess this up… lol. I have given 3 weeks of my all so far, and I have 5 weeks to go until phase 2. I can start adding a little diary and more seasonings 🙂 Like soy sauce…. I need to go buy more groceries so I can start cooking. Y’all I have been getting sooooo lazy about that. I just wish I had more encouragement.
I thought that starting a blog would help but no one ever comments, so I wonder if this is even worth it? Ok, bye.