Just pondering…

Good morning my pretties! I have been feeling down lately, not as much energy. I don’t know if I am feeling the lack of sugar or what? I am staying hydrated and eating well. Today I am going to the park after work and taking a light stroll to clear my thoughts and burn off some stress.

Well my sis-in-laws baby shower is coming up on the 21st, so I have a NEW goal! I keep talking about that dress I want to fit into, so I am hoping to zip it up easier by then. This is going to take a lot of discipline, even MORE than I have been doing, on my part. I have the food, I have the energy, I just need the will power.

I need someone to challenge me! I want to start a contest of some sort. Maybe like how many miles under x amount of time? It’s good to make motivational tools, mine is my weight chart hanging in my bathroom…. which is getting full by the way 🙂 So, that really helps me to stay focused on my task at hand.

I’m not losing weight JUST to fit into old clothes, I am doing this for my wellbeing, and to feel good about myself. I want to go out on the town with my husband again, put clothes on without cussing myself out for being fat. I want to love myself again. It’s so hard to do that when I hate myself for getting fat! Even though I have lost 24lbs total so far, I still have a long way to go.

I’m just sitting here pondering the future and what will happen to me…. will I stay focused or will I crack and cheat and give into temptations??? I want to say NO!!!!!!! I need a 2nd me, so I can slap myself if I try to do anything stupid to mess this up… lol. I have given 3 weeks of my all so far, and I have 5 weeks to go until phase 2. I can start adding a little diary and more seasonings 🙂 Like soy sauce…. I need to go buy more groceries so I can start cooking. Y’all I have been getting sooooo lazy about that. I just wish I had more encouragement.

I thought that starting a blog would help but no one ever comments, so I wonder if this is even worth it? Ok, bye.

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About nikki8a

Howdy! I'm a very honest person and I hate liars... I like to have fun and act silly every now and again. This blog is for inspiration, motivation, and my thoughts about random things. I'm currently struggling with weight loss, have been for almost 5 years now. Was always a very fit individual, but then college, work, and bad eating habbits happend. I hope to inspire people who are going through the same things I am. I'm open to advice as well! Tell your friends about me.... Thanks for reading♥

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